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It's always better on holiday... [Feb. 2nd, 2009|04:03 am]
The Roman Gnome

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Wow. I'm actually updating this journal. It's going to be half-assed, but it's a start.

1.) SUNY New Paltz sent confirmation of my leave of absence... about three days before the spring semester began. This is why New Paltz was always the school for me. We have the same ideals; "Why do today what can be done tomo- Oh shit, it's due tomorrow. Fuck, fuck, fuck."

2.) The spring semester started January 20th. So, that means if I was attending classes this would be week three and I'd probably be putting off an essay due next week.

3.) I've visited New Paltz four times already. The first day of classes I came to make my rounds, but it was mostly to end a relationship. Thursday I had a drunken debacle at 80s night with my best friend from home (who hadn't left for SUNY Fredonia yet), two exes, an infamous bisexual, and many, many people I've forgotten (and hopefully they've forgotten me, too).

The last two trips were to visit my most recent ex. Ah...

4.) The job search continues. Can I be honest? I'm doing a better job at recapping the past month than filling out applications. My mother is ready to lash out at me any day now. I don't know when or if I'll be interviewed for a job I applied for at the post office. My high school creative writing teacher told me I should try for a job at her husband's pub. And then there is always Mohonk...

I'm getting ahead of myself.

5.) So, how is the actual leave? The actual "being away from school"? "Finding myself"? "Traveling"? "New found dedication to writing and finishing my first novel"?

... Not experienced? Is that the phrase I want to use?

I feel pretty pathetic. I want to expend my energies on something productive but, what energies? I have none.

I knew I'd frustrate myself by writing this entry which is why I've been avoiding it. It's hard to admit I'm lost and I'm being pulled further into the abyss. I'm taking baby steps to get out of it, though. I'm learning a lot of basic things I feel I should have learned a long time ago- Things the majority of people can do with ease and multitask with.

I'm not the majority, though.

Well, I'm going to keep taking those baby steps- Maybe not even baby steps. In the real world, I suppose all I'm doing in rocking back and forth on my back and drooling.

I'll let you know when I've rolled onto my front.

X Kari
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If my name were Larry, I would be happy. [Dec. 20th, 2008|02:03 am]
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[Current Location |Lefevre Hall]
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I haven't written a single thing about my second or third semester.

Nor do I plan to.

Perhaps I'll scour my personal journal for highlights, (like catching mono, rooming with Kate Brady, and writing an essay comparing Samuel Beckett's Endgame to Oscar Wilde's The Importance of Being Earnest) but otherwise, all they did was inform me that I'm never going to enjoy academia.

(Well, among a few other things)

I took this not-so-newfound knowledge and applied it: I'm taking a semester off. A mistake? Perhaps. But the greater mistake would be to come back when every fiber of my being protests it. I can lead myself to water, but I can't make me drink it. Well, I can, but I don't want to.

Alfie informed me Che Guevara took leave after his third semester. I think it was meant to console me but, oh, my poor conservative heart.

So, I shall join the work force until my return in Fall ‘09. Tomorrow I move out of Lefevre Hall on the SUNY New Paltz campus and begin my job hunt. My dream job would be to instruct skiing at Sterling Forest and work weekends at Hollister- I think the latter is the closest I'll ever get to working in a foreign country, and as a writer, I need the experience.

But I’ll probably end up being a waitress.

Although this journal was created to record only my college experiences, I do think this leave will play a very important role on my future perspective of college.

I leave with hopes of actually updating this thing. Not high ones, but hopes nonetheless.

Though in the meantime I have to blatantly point it out, one day I shall prove textual sarcasm possible.
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(no subject) [Jan. 22nd, 2008|08:23 am]
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I'm not packed for the second semester.

This wouldn’t be a problem, really, if my first class wasn’t tomorrow at 10 am.

I have mixed feelings about returning to New Paltz. I’m excited to start new classes, utilize skills learned from first semesters experimentations, and reunite with friends, but for the first time I have an aching feeling of homesickness under my rib cage. Sometimes it’s a very gentle pulse I can barely feel, like blood flowing through my veins, and other times it overtakes my heart beat, pulsing against my ear drums.

The reason isn’t abstruse: It’s because I had no reference to judge leaving home. Now that I’ve spent a semester away from home I can compare the sensation of waking up alone to the smell of coffee percolating, the thrum of a diesel engine, the pitter-patter of my dog’s feet waiting to spring out of the house. I slept on the couch just to be closer to these things I’m about to be wrenched apart from. I know what it’ll feel like.

My roommate's complaints of returning aren’t helping either. Misery spreads like a yawn.

As long as I stay busy, I don’t think I’ll succumb to melancholia. On that note, I’m off to clean my room.
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(no subject) [Nov. 30th, 2007|12:35 am]
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Sebastian died on me this morning.

I went to Women in Lit. and in the midst of Madame Bovary it dawned on me that I'd left my flash drive in my room, which I need for my next class. When I ran back "The Blue Screen of Death" as my roommate Cait described it, was on display. When I tried to restart the computer the screen just went black.

Tomorrow I shall take it to student services and see if I need to re-install Windows, which I think I might have to do. I also think I've lost everything on the computer.

This is why I don't name inanimate objects. When the black screen flickered I shrugged and said, "Well, at least I can caught up on my reading." Names are ill-fitting on items I have no emotional attachment towards.

David and I are taking the train down to the city tomorrow to celebrate his birthday with our FIT friends. I need to be cracked out of my shell.
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Three Days [Aug. 16th, 2007|11:37 pm]
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I bought The Sound of Music today, if that’s any indication of how stressed I feel. If it weren’t for pride I would have succumbed to purchasing Pride & Prejudice as well as The Thorn Birds. Yes, it’s that bad.

I’m currently running on iced coffee and the constant churn adrenaline caused by anxiety and excitement, which might explain why I went hysterical when I thought my mom used my shower poof.

I haven’t packed a single thing, I still have to purchase my German book, and I’m almost positive that while I’ve remembered something as miniscule as floss, I’ve forgotten something important, like all my pants.

The never-ending contemplation of whether or not I should bring scissors will be the absolute death of me.

In nife and accurate news:

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I am baffled and extremely pleased.

Overall, despite feeling lost, I can’t express how absolutely excited I am.

I have this new life; a ball of clay I can mold and shift and changed into anything I want it to be. I’m not sad or frightened. I’m ready. For the first time, I’m confident in myself. I can do this.

(I think.)
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Five Days [Aug. 14th, 2007|02:09 am]
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Q: Should I start making a last-minute-shopping list, write out thank yous, plan on saying good-byes, check everything is sent in and start packing?

A: Yes, you bloody idiot.
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1 Week [Aug. 13th, 2007|01:37 am]
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Wunderbar.
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9 More Days [Aug. 10th, 2007|06:45 pm]
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I checked my New Paltz account a few days ago and after much tricky maneuvering around the site, discovered I'll be rooming here.

Supposedly, according to David, it's an upperclassmen dormitory attached to Shango Hall, a more Freshmen orientated dorm.

I've also been invited to my first college party via Facebook. Oh sweet, sweet technology. What did people do before you?
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18 Days [Aug. 1st, 2007|10:27 pm]
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I've dubbed my new laptop Sebastian. It came to me suddenly and I don't question where from.

I don't usually name inanimate objects, but I find a lot of people are compelled to do so. It must be one of those "human" things. Even in writing, I don't give characters a definite name, and when I do, it's only because the name itself is very important to their identity. It started as a subconscious thing, but it wasn't until recently I realized I do this.

So, after ordering the laptop, the first thing I commissioned myself to do was to think of a name for my new computer. I pretty much drew a blank, so I'm definitely not complaining about the epiphany.

Sebastian means "majestic"; "venerable"; "revered". I can only hope this is a sign of things to come.

Tomorrow I will (doubtfully) deposit my graduation money, take my comforter to the laundromat, and get a hair cut for school. Then I'm off to clean for my graduation/birthday/bon voyage party on Saturday.

Life is good.
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20 Days [Jul. 30th, 2007|10:02 pm]
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"Group nine flies high. No lie. You know it's--

BALLIN'!
"


This was my group for orientation, a mix of English majors and other related fields, and that was our well thought out cheer.

My OL was Chris, who is lying stunned on the ground, and my roommate, Cait, is the one in the fedora, as if I'd room with anyone not wearing a fedora.

In this picture you see Cool Chris trying to defend Group Nine from an unseen monster as we flee, faint, and cry out in panic. The picture was my idea, alas! We didn't win the photo contest. Nor the lip sync competition. Nor a nobel peace prize in mathematics.

Still, we persevered. A lovely experience for one and all.

20 more days.
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